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Video idea

For my video I want to either have something in a loop or capture the same thing multiple times. I want the music in the background to determine the mood in that way when I incorporate the animated film and a outside clip it will not be too distracting or chaotic. I am not into videos that are all over the place or just weird images or patterns fucking with your eyes. Believe it or not I would say *ways of seeing as a inspiration because the suspended time and nosies is what really advances the narrative I think this lends to incorporating other styles of film. Im sure my idea will change and evolve from here but this is my jumping off point. Open to different ideas.

5 Artsist

Pipilotti Rist- (born 21 June 1962), is a visual artist who works with video, film, and moving images which are often displayed as projections.My favorite collection is the solo exhibition she has in the MOMA. I have always been intrigued by the amount of time we spend in bed and how much we yet long to be there. I often think about being in my bed while at a concert, cause how awesome would that be?! Anyway thats were this exhibition/rist took me when I saw this video on youtube. She has individuals laying in twin bed with projections on them and on the bed.

june Paik-Nam - June Paik was a Korean American artist. When I looked up his video art online it showed upbeat music with beams of light dragging from the figures. I think this is beautiful but also distracting. The music seems to determine the mood and speed of the clips.

Fred forest- Born: July 6, 1933 (age 83 years),Fred Forest is a French new media artist making use of video, photography, the printed press, mail, radio, television, telephone, telematics, and the internet in a wide range of installations, performances, A self-taught artist whose formal education ended after primary school. His video art that I tried looking at on youtube in the MOMA were mostly just him talking in french before his exhibition and then someone starting taping him up so I'm not sure if that is the video art or f the projectors in the background were or all it together.

Jesper Just- is a Danish artist, who lives and works in New York, NY. Thematically, his film works revolve around “the complex inter-relations between sexuality, love and cinema.” Many of his older films specifically question conventional notions of masculinity. Nina Folkersma writes: “A real man is supposed to contain his emotions, to be inviolable, intellectual, pragmatic, virile, and dominant. That, at least, is the image of man portrayed in most Hollywood films. Transgressing social and cinematographic conventional representations of masculinity is a crucial element of Just’s work.” I absolutely love this thinking and type of video art its ominous and I love the slow motion and slow music really makes you think and look through the narrative. I feel like this is video art with a purpose not just cool lights or a social commentary.

Sharon Neshat- is an Iranian visual artist who lives in New York City, known primarily for her work in film, video and photography. Her artwork centers on the contrasts between Islam and the West, femininity and masculinity, public life and private life, antiquity and modernity, and bridging the spaces between these subjects. Nest has been recognized countless times for her work, from winning the International Award Nest’s earliest works were photographs, such as the Unveiling (1993) and Women of Allah (1993–97) series, which explore notions of femininity in relation to Islamic fundamentalism and militancy in her home country. I again LOVEEE this video art with like a political deeper underlying meaning and I love the idea of doing a split screen of two different views going on in one topic. Powerful and subtle.

     

Ending a serious relationship

I have been on quite an emotional ride recently. What has been weighing heavily on my heart and mind involves a slice from my personal life. Without going into details, Adam, my partner for the past year, and I have decided to part ways. But i want to remain good friends.The past three weeks have been a tremendously painful period, feelings of empathy mixed with remorse and guilt. The impulse to burst into tears would hit me sporadically throughout the day. I know how lucky I am to have a man who tends to everything I need. is willing to do things out of his comfort zone and wants to grow with me but I often feel like I am dragging him along. 

Being a photo-journalist is a very rewarding job but it leaves me traveling most of the year. Whenever I am home I want and expect him to drop everything and that isnt fair of me. When I was in college  had similar feelings and had the chance to end things but I knew that Alex would shut me out of his life. I couldn't imagine not sharing every single part of my day with him and vice versa. I have met someone while traveling that travels as much as I do and has artistic interest like me. I would no longer have to feel like i am dragging him to art shows or other activities I love and I wouldn't have to pretend to like Alex's family. This would have defiantly been easier had I had done this years ago but i KNEW something like this would happen.

I will be home in one meet and until then i feel its best if I give Alex some distance and really think about the decision I will make.Ultimately being honest is the most important thing. I will ask him to meet me at a restaurant and tell him how I have been feeling and see if eh has been feeling the same way. I will stay clear about talking about the other guy because I don't find that necessary since we are currently just friends. I will be as compassionate as I can be because  I want to stay friends and my family loves him. This will not be easy...

Peace Corps 

Having graduated college with a major in Visual studies I will be preparing for my Peace Corps experience. During my first trial year in south America most likely Brazil I will be learning Brazils language and picking a focus group to work with. I will naturally be drawn to the english and liberal arts groups and try to find a way to make them colloid. My first couple months away will be very hard; noting that the only time I was away for an extended amount of time was when I studied abroad. I will miss my family, familiar faces, the easy access to food, water, entertainment. It will definitely be hard but it will allow me to look at myself through a whole different sense. I will see with my own eyes the effects of our government on other countries and make a difference. During my first few months I hope to meet one or two people I can really let my guard down with and feel a connection to; I think this will really determine weather or not I can make it the two years.

After going through the training I will choose liberal arts as my focus field because it does not pin me to one specific job. I can be more flexible in terms of how I approach and help this specific community. I have met Lola who lives down the street and has been practicing her english with me. We do not always understand each other word for word but we naturally felt comfortable with one another. I have my first class this afternoon and I am nervous how the children in the community will feel about having a gringa has their teacher. As much as I want to relate to them and see myself in them I can not. I was brought up in completely different circumstances than these kids how could they respect what I have to say. Of course someone like me made its; I had supportive parents, education, money , plentiful food and water and they were lucky if they had one of those things. I am hoping that they see that I care and want to share everything that I have learned and paid for with them so they can succeed like me.

My class went okay. It wasn't exactly what I was expecting but I guess that the students showed up at all is  a good sign. I started the class with some brain teasers and a get to know you activity so we could all feel more familiar with each other and surprisingly the kids have never played such things. It is exciting to see the similarities and differences we would never encounter if it wasn't for traveling and forcing yourself into a different cultures. Things we consider "no brainers" are not necessarily taught worldwide. I am going to see if I can work with older students because I find that all though the younger kids are honest and interesting to analyze I don't have as much knowledge on how to weave intellectual academic information in a simple kindergarten level. In hopes that I can find students that are enthusiastic about the arts and are more developed so I could establish a high school newspaper run by the kids in the community.